Archive | December 20, 2012

This week

continues to be disturbing..

Connecticut school shooting, Delhi gang rape and now Nithyashree husband’s suicide (though it was a personal decision) still mind is in totally disturbed state thinking of Nithyashree and her family. May God give all the strength to the families affected from these recent incidents. Let this be the end.

Thoughts are going wild, goosebumps show up as thoughts get deeper, tears roll down the moment mind pictures the families dealing with grief, there is a sense of urge to call off all those misunderstandings, to make those long pending calls, connect with everyone and just stay in the bed cuddling the family. Focus and concentration have become distant words for all that mind wants is to only sulk…

Heart yearns for some magic to happen and call off all these incidents as fake..

Adi is having security drills at school to learn how to hide in closet if a stranger enters the classroom suddenly. Her school had taken several safety measures in last one week and had circulated the detailed accounts to the parents. I spoke about the shooting incident to her though she was not ready to listen and assured her halfheartedly that she is safe.

What does “safe” mean? Who can assure it? Is it time to abolish the word “safe” from the dictionary?  I am going through the heights of insecurity questioning myself as we head start the day “what is the guarantee that we will meet as a family for dinner tonight?”

Hope the new week and new year brings some peace to home and world… All I am doing is pray hard and harder.