Not a happy post
when you have a moment to introspect and realize what you miss, what you want, what you are, what do you mean to others (specifically those who take you for granted and judge you constantly in spite of controlling you). Its a very ugly feeling is all I can say and ended with a sobbing session.
This is the reason I keep myself busy and never allow my mind to wander around thoughts. It is better to keep my mind pre-occupied and busy so that it doesn’t travel into my pain points and make me feel weak.
I feel helpless and weak today but will definitely get back to my feet soon.