Fear of judgement

It is the fear of judgement by someone I want to keep first in my trust list that keeps me up all night and makes my cheek wet at random times more than the pressure of physical labor and mental stress itself.

From what little I know about myself, I can handle any level of physical labor but I cannot overcome the fear of being judged.

More power to girl friends, my maternal family, blog friends, neighbors and supportive work environment. I could not survive this phase without you all.

The kids have ear infection and on antibiotics. They were home all this week. I have bad cough and taking OTC medicines, resumed work after two sick days and workplace has been very supportive. I cook between meetings, feed kids and make sure they take their medicines on time and rest well. Everything else has taken a back seat.

How would you react to someone who judges you as

It is very much possible that they got sick because you didn’t handle them properly?
Washed clothes as piles on the floor? Aren’t they supposed to be on the closet?
When did you last sweep the home?

Read the first line, this someone is not just someone to hit ignore, it’s the same one I want to keep first in my trust list. Life is hard!!



5 thoughts on “Fear of judgement

  1. You’re a terrific mom and a wonderful person… I understand you want this person in your life and think highly of this person’s judgment but sometimes you just need to ignore… hang in there .. tight warm hugs my dear !!

  2. Ani,

    I am one of your ardent readers and love your heartfelt and warm writing. I have always felt you are an amazing person. People who judge are very hard to please, how much ever you try. I think you are naturally a person who gives your very best in whatever you do. Learning to ignore and not to taking to heart what the other person says, to protect yourself from getting hurt will help. This is not easy and takes time and practice. No one has the right to judge us. Period. But we cannot change anyone but ourselves.

    We should set boundaries (by ignoring or whatever tactics they are) to protect ourselves from getting hurt, even from people closest to us. I just heard recently – you get along in a family/extended family by ignoring 50% of the stuff. I started laughing and at the same time it made so much sense.

    Warm Regards,
    A friend

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